My Heart is Beating or Bleeding ?

Facedown in Thamrin Street last night, with one and zeros. A Man's Dream is about to collapse just now. I couldn't have a better word to explain my feeling somehow. I was supposed to be happy, a breakthrough, a headlight, but i didn't. I was left there pretty confused.

Sitting in the end of sideways while waiting for 640's bus, it was a perfect hideaways. I'm sitting there with a bunch of question.

"Did i never told you ? that my heart beat faster when i'm with you, i feel happy when i'm with you ?" But i found words failed to describe how much i forever gratefull for your welcoming gratitude. Those were the best night i ever had.

I might came out with a wrong conclusion, a miss perception, well i'm just out to find the other part of me.

i've tried my best and i'm just unsucceed
i don't get what i want nor what i need
it may go to waste ?!
but if i never tried i never know
to be honest it's really worth trying..

For those night, i'll be forever gratefull, if this all ended tomorrow, i might be (still) forever gratefull